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eating-figs-here · 2 months ago

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The sillies!!!

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benevolenterrancy · 3 months ago

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Dunno what happened with that request for a sickfic someone posted a few months ago, but I for one would enjoy seeing Jin Guangyao taking care of someone else: Xue Yang, Nie Mingjue, Lan Xichen, Nie Huaisang... whoever floats your boat. If it's ok with you, of course.

Currently, Meng Yao’s office was intolerably full, which was to say there was more than just himself in it. One of those occupants happened to be Nie Huaisang, and it could be safely said that it was impossible to mistake a room that held Nie Huaisang for one that didn't. The other occupant was Nie Mingjue which might not normally be a problem except that, right now, his sect leader was inarguably ill. Well, not inarguably, he supposed, because Nie Mingjue was certainly arguing it. Loudly. With Nie Huaisang. While Meng Yao was trying to work. Fortunately Meng Yao was used to resolving problems on his own.

*cracks knuckles* there we go anon, something quick and light-hearted!

#mdzs #nieyao #nie mingjue #meng yao #jin guangyao #nmj #jgy #fanfiction #i remember the request you're referencing but it just kinda fizzled out... i didn't really have any particular inspiration to work off of #but jin guangyao - or meng yao in this case - needing to be the one to take care of someone? that i can work with #though if i'm being honest i'm not sure this entirely meets the brief xD but it was fun to write and it includes ill nmj so close enough #makes for something quick and chill which is perfect since i've been struggling to write lately #and i very nobly resisted the urge to include whump because i know the original prompter hadn't wanted any xD #though it did get me to start writing a completely different whumpy nieyao sickfic on the side so that might appear at some point #if i'm lucky... praying to the gods of free time and inspiration

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todayisafridaynight · 2 years ago

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'tumblr i told you to stop sniping my post quality' translation: 80's sequel to this so click for better quality

#rgg #ryu ga gotoku #ryu ga gotoku 7 #yakuza series #yakuza 7 #yakuza like a dragon #masato arakawa #masumi arakawa #jo sawashiro #snap sketches #n e way ignore the fact ive made arakawa's chain gold now. my blind ass only now realized it's gold and not silver #MY LOUDEST TEEHEE this was the vision..... this was the vibe i wanted.. teehee..#they're silly to me.... they're SOOO silly i want them to be fumbling dads together only to perfect parenthood down the line #every time i draw something like this i ALWAYS want to put my dumb Fake Doujin title somewhere the urge is SO strong #i love manga covers and i love making fake manga covers....#maybe i should make one of those Ungodly Long-As-Hell fan webcomics like they used to back in the 2010's....#just straight 200 pages of arasawa domestic content...#legend behavior... which is why i couldnt im not built like that ☠️#ok im done looking at this bye. i have to watch. The Correct SP Finale ☠️☠️☠️#im starting to get back the drawing flow so... hopefully more stuff this week... and.. get the drums and fanfare ready..#i do got a cute lil comic with ichi and arakawa planned <3 #would love if i can do that soon... ok bye movie time

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livefastnbebeautiful · 6 months ago

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orlesianhennin · 4 months ago

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sometimes making the Wrong choices in dragon age are the more interesting and fun ones. the conflict makes the world building and narrative more interesting to me.

#i still suffer from the Be Nice to Everyone and Make the World Better curse but i'm slowly getting over it #idk i just like... want to fight the urge to Make Everything Perfect and Harmonious in Thedas #this is To An Extent I still cannot bear being evil LOL

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eclaire-went-bam · 9 months ago

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npd + rdr culture is seeing people call dutch a narcissist and going "YEAA KING he's just like me ong" and then promptly realise they're actually insulting him with the word 'narcissist' & i proceed to backpedal ...

#i have no idea how familiar the rdr2 fandom is with personality disorders?? ive seen a lotta ppl be positive with them. like “they're just #like me bcs they totally have x y or z!!“ which is fun to see #but ive also seen a LOT of people throw around the word narcissist as an insult as if it isn't an actual mental illness ppl can have #yikes ... embarrassing 😨😨😨#anyways dutch SOOO has npd (& other things too but that's not relevant for this post)#DUTCH IS A NARCISSIST !!1!!!1!2 :D (stims & dances bcs i'm tired of seeing narc used in Always a demonising way)#rdr2 #dutch van der linde #rdr #npd #narcissistic personality disorder #he's just like me 🤩#when i was still in my “i literally can't be a narc because i'm literally perfect” phase i literally hated dutch and i hated him even more #bcs of how much i related to him #the urge to say “— i'm not abusive!” so ppl don't get the wrong idea vs hating to need to constantly make it clear that npd ≠ abuse & i can #talk abt his npd & relate to it without the Other Stuff™#i once saw a meme abt dutch's narcissism & loved it so much before proceeding to realise it was made by an ableist #ableism tw

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powdermelonkeg · 1 year ago

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First drawing of Crowdsourced Durge, aka Daggerroot. It's been AWHILE since I last picked up a tablet in proper, but I think this is a decent drawing to start with (also thank you to @too-many-blorbos for helping me with posing)

Details below the cut:

In-game appearance

Crowd-decided details:

I am romancing Gale

This is a Resisting Dark Urge playthrough

They're a middle-aged, nonbinary, deep gnome Way of Shadows monk

On top of their Durge skills (Intimidation/Medicine), they're also proficient in Insight and Stealth

Chaotic Neutral-Good Alignment: Impulsive, acts in the interest of friends only, can be easily persuaded to do the right thing by said friends, but seldom ever the wrong thing. Doesn't care what friends get up to unless it negatively impacts other friends. Strong sense of wanting to rectify past mistakes, but refuses to be told the "correct" way to do so. Thinks stealing from/killing/spiting evil characters is justified because "they deserved it."

Flaws: Blunt/has no filter, contrary for the sake of being contrary, weirdly prejudiced against elves (due to repressed Ketheric spite)

Good Qualities: Loves animals, unfailingly loyal, good at bartering and haggling

Quirks: Takes a trophy from each memorable kill, incredibly horny, will try anything (potions, strange food, licking the spider, Loviatar's blessing) at least once

Memory Loss Side Effects: Thinks everyone else has the Urge but Durge is just bad at controlling it, doesn't know cannibalism isn't normal, doesn't know what sex is

STR 9/DEX 17/CON 12/INT 10/WIS 12/CHA 15

Imposed rule: Short rest after every fight, and long rest when out of short rests

Additional fun facts:

Their name is Daggerroot. They picked their name as they were combing the beach for supplies, recognized a single sprig of it, and the lore around it came to mind: "Known as 'the executioner's garnish', this herb flourishes in blood-fed soil and has flavoured countless final meals." For some reason, the description brought them amusement. Both "Dagger" and "Root" are acceptable nicknames, though most people tend towards the former.

They're the group medic. This is why they're in charge. Because they have such a good medical knowledge due to struck out Dark Urge memories, they've assumed "surgeon" was their profession before being tadpoled. And, I mean, they're not wrong...

There's something just not-quite-right about them, visually. They LOOK a lot like a deep gnome, and to someone who doesn't know deep gnomes well, they are one. But to deep gnomes, they have a very uncanny valley effect to them.

Their dream guardian is identical to them. This is going to do LEAGUES for their trust in this person, with a fair share of existential crises on top of it. "If you're not what's causing the urges...that means I am. I'll listen to whatever you say, because you're clearly my better half."

Monk class backstory:

They killed their foster family as a young child before Sceleritas found them. Because they were out of control then, and now had the eyes of everyone in the Bhaal temple on them, they adopted monastic tendencies (gifted kid + fear)

That deep-seated fear of loss of control still persists in current form Durge (based on the canon origin monologue: "Injured beyond repair, I know nothing besides this: I must resist the Dark Urge, lest is consume my mind.") and leads to sticking with Monk as their class at the start of BG3

Bonus points, they gained admiration from peers in the temple for killing people bare-handed

#why are they barefoot? because they hate shoes #the guardian reveal is going to GUT them #also this ruleset for behavior is going to be fantastic for storycrafting #it is my sincere hope that i have enough spoons to draw dagger more often. and to improve while doing so #there's a hint to their identity in their outfit; i took a tiny bit of liberties #also i gave them bloody plum dye because default does not vibe thank you very much #vitiligo is hard to draw. i need to get better at it. practice makes perfect #bg3 #crowdsourced durge #daggerroot durge #the dark urge #also screw hands #i think the next thing I'll practice is expressions. both for the expressions themselves and to practice getting their face right #my art #real coffee hours #holy shit it's 4 am

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pepperpixel · 5 months ago

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Both love and hate the absolute DELUGE of ink a fresh sharpie unleashes onto the paper the instant it makes contact…. I have complicated feelings towards the deluge lmao

#pepper words #it might not even only be fresh sharpies idk. I don’t remember… it might always be a deluge #until it starts to die #I use to ONLY use sharpies to draw traditionally for like the longest time. but then I got fancy pens and shit.#that dont piss out all there ink instantly #it’s kinda fun tho.. like it forces you to draw faster. and press lighter. and just. be looser w ur lines #and even when ur being loose it’s STILL making thick as hell lines. but. that’s also kinda interesting..?#idk. it’s kinda fun using them again sometimes. I feel like it’s kinda freeing. u just have to accept what the sharpie puts out #u can only control it so much. u have to let go of that urge for perfection and take what u get #I feel like currently I really struggle w. liking my sketches more than my lines. and trying to replicate all my sketchwork #into my linework… but lines are not sketches!!! so it leads to linework I don’t like either cuz it’s all scratchy and weird #i feel like. 1 I need to learn. to let some pictures just be sketches. like if I like the look of my sketch and wanna keep that loose #conceptual sorta look. to just. not line it. not try to replicate a sketch in lines #and 2! to embrace smoothness in my linework more… to accept my lines. not looking exactly like my sketch #and to not go over every single sketch stroke in ink to try and achieve that.. cuz it doesn’t work!!!!!#and.. uhhh. yeah! I think using sharpies might actually help out w that. cuz u literally. u CANNOT go over them a 100 times.#or trace over every sketch mark. the spread of the ink does not allow it! and if u keep trying it’ll just become a mess #forces me to accept my lines as they are… lines….#ok anyway… sorry for the impromptu sharpie / art dissatisfaction discussion ghghg #sharpies r cool and interesting to work w!!! force me to do things differently i think I like em #but also because I’m so stuck in my ways w lining my sketches they also frustrate me initially ghgh- but who cares if I’m frustrated!#the lines down! it’s done! u just gotta move onto the next one! and boom. whadaya kno #all of a sudden u got some finished linework that isn’t exactly what u put down for the sketch. but it’s smooth and clean and shit!#thats cool lol

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starwrittenfates · 4 months ago

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@stellsaria liked this post for a starter with Durge Hope! --- For Filarick!

After learning the truth about the tiefling Wyll had been hunting and how Karlach had in fact been innocent, Hope looked at her hands in horror, just as she had when she killed Alfira that night, wondering if it was all caused by the dark urges. However, it didn't seem to shake the immense guilt she now felt for her role in taking down Karlach. She had been trying to do better, to make up for what happened to the bard, but had only jumped ahead instead without thinking things through.

When Mizora had finished rubbing the crime in her and Wyll's face mockingly, presenting a gift, Hope had dashed off, wanting some distance from camp for a bit to process it all. But all she had down was start breaking down, crying. Hearing footsteps approach, she tried sniffled, trying to wipe them away, but it wouldn't stop. "I didn't mean to. I thought I was helping Wyll. Just strike me down now. I don't want to hurt anyone else. I'm sorry...I'm so sorry."

#stellsaria #𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐄 ⟫ The Dark Urge/Hope #VERSE ;; Resisting the Urge (Bg3)#// I saw that Filarick doesn't like it when you kill Karlach and I was like....oh this is perfect angst #// cause in Hope's playthrough she accidentally kills Karlach because she thinks she's doing good but it becomes a learning thing for her #// and something she regrets forever. it makes her learn to listen and wait and gives others a chance and get the full story before acting

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romantically-yours · 6 months ago

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I wanna pick up a girl and pin her against a wall and give her lots of lil smooches while we giggle like the little gay goblin gremlins that we are

#thoughts #oni talks #sapphic yearning #oni has a crush #not really targeted but idk I wish I was buff so bad bro #the lesbian short person madness is getting to me I think #I want to bridal carry the love of my life plz thank #why workout why no just be buff lesbian already :(#also to be able to do those dramatic ass romantic dips during dancing #want the gorl to know I am stronq reliable and will never drop her (unless she wants me to in a safe manner)#this is why I fucking love water I get to be as buff as I want I can carry gorl no problem I can carry anybody in water I can be buff as fuc #I do also wish my arms were bigger so I could more effectively wrap them around people sometimes but that’s separate #maybe it’s just coz I had more alcohol than normal today but the YEARNING IS GETTING TO ME YALL #I wanna write lesbian music again so bad I wanna shoot gay little music videos with my paramour #sleeby bedtime where we read each other sapphic stories as they fall asleep in my lap or give versa or smth #but also girls in lap!!!! so perfect 1000/10 also just I wanna be buff so baddddddd #ship dynamics #idk if it counts but I feel like someone could make ship art with these ideas so sure #I wanna be good at dancing so I can be like a little lesbian doing the rose thing in the most dramatically gay way possible #I’m gonna be a Gay lil cowboy tomorrow for pride and the urge to dramatically tip my hat in lesbian is gonna be so strong

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snekdood · 1 month ago

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im so happy for you that fiction doesnt effect your reality. thats not the case for all of us though ✌️

#and intentionally trying to fuck with people or fuck them up bc you know theyre sensitive about what they consume- makes you evil!#sorry! not taking any nuance on that particular thing today <3 #no reason to psychologically torment anyone ever especially not a trans guy online you were told to dislike <3 <3 <3 #like some of yall only like saying 'fiction doesnt effect reality' SOLELY so you can harass and fuck with people for whomst it DOES effect.#and i think that makes you evil yeah. i feel p confident about that one. get a life seriously and get over your edgy bully teenager persona #genuinely some people are endlessly searching for an excuse to treat other people like shit #if you do this- only say that shit to excuse harassing someone else- you should prolly do the world the favor and off yourself.#or stay as far away from humanity till you can get over your desire to be a smug piece of shit that cant offer ppl basic human respect #we get it you can make up 'logical' sounding reasons for why you get to treat THIS particular person like shit. like i get it i rly do #but you really gotta get over that urge. maybe theres no acceptable target. and maybe thats what scares you most.#bc the only way you know how to express and release your anger rn is by hurting other people...#and if theres no acceptable targets... and you're hurting people.......#you might actually be doing something wrong! that would warrant valid criticism you cant as easily ignore w/o your excuses!#and lord forbid you ever see yourself as being someone who does something wrong *gasp* Blasphemy to even suggest such right?#hey trust me- its not a new thing to vent your anger by hurting people at all. you should know that. thats prolly how your dad treated you.#and thats why you hate the assertion so much- bc you might end up being more like the person who abused you than you thought #but instead of confront that and break it down and work on it- you stubbornly deny it. so then you keep repeating the abuse.#bc your oh so perfect ass could NEVER do wrong surely not. you've built pride on seeing yourself as a better person than your father.#so i get why it might all crumble down and make you pissy if someone asserts that you're not too different........#to be clear bc this post got super hyper specific n even tho i connected everything its still weird how i got from point a to b but-#you're like your father in the sense that you hurt people to relieve your anger. got it? got it. bc i dont think i was clear sdgkjgdshjbk #the conclusion to my thesis wasnt conclusioning yknow

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capsule-novak · 2 months ago

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i dont even ship jayvik romantically those guys have something that transcends bonds on a human level bro. they're not kissing or fucking they're not in love in the traditional way or the sexual way we see love portrayed because it's something deeper and whole and all encompassing like idk how to describe this guys. they're best friends they love each other they're one in the same they complete each other they saved the universe. no i dont think they are romantically inclined but it's More than romance and its friendship but the word "friendship" is too light or juvenile of a word. these men are soulmates in every reality do u understand me

#usually i go crazy over shipping characters like this but im gonna be real; i didn't get the urge to with them #what they have is more important than a romantic love #how do i even describe the way they make me feel ???#i thought I'd come out of arcane wanting to see these two kiss but like. no actually. i just need them to be together forever??#i need them to be happy and whole together and fulfill eachother in every way?#im shocked that im not clambering over myself trying to ship them but something about it would feel forced to me #what they have is good. its perfect for them #they have each other in the way they need each other #and nothing else matters #wow #i am crazy for them but not in the way i was expecting to be LOL #arcane s2 #arcane spoilers #my post

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dzozef · 16 days ago

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i got offered the promotion at work.... why am i every business owners wettest dream damn....

#yapping #yes my ocd is horrible for my mental health but boy is it good for my wallet !!!!#its not OFFICIAL yet #but it was offered to me and i accepted so theyre seeing how they want to proceed now #cause its not just about me theres a shit ton of changes they want to make that include switching like 5 peoples schedules around #but my team leader said that most of those changes being possible depended on whether i would accept this or not #so well see #id be a team leader myself now #the feminine urge to become a power hungry dictator control freak at work.......#id be switching from my current early morning shifts to late night shifts which is much less healthy on paper #but my body is made for sleeping late i physically can not go to bed before 3am even now when i wake up at 5:30 #i might have the money to renovate my apartment now cause i think this comes with a 20% pay increase which is a lotttt #i basically will be earning two incomes myself now 😭#dani said he fully believes Ace Of Spades exists at this point cause everything always ends up going my way in the end #i know it may seem like im flexing but please be aware when i started this job a year and a half ago i was borderline homeless 😐#so its a huge deal for me 😭 and really quickly done as well which is why its so insane #like. in a year and a half only i went from borderline homeless and my parents keeping me on constant phonecalls #cause they were worried id off myself if i hung up #to being a homeowner that earns two incomes by herself while working from home #i feel like in most companies hard work doesnt rly pay off tbh i was just lucky to get into one of the few companies where they do value it #the literal CEO is my biggest dickrider 😭 but i do appreciate him giving me raises randomly cause he feels like i deserve it #but yeah !!!! apparently life altering anxiety that forces you to compulsively do perfect work at any job you ever do #because making mistakes and not giving it your 110% feels like a moral failure so you feel sick at the very thought of it #is apparently what makes the dream worker #if only they knew i dont actually care about this in any capacity.... i am just fucked in the head in a way that works im their favour 😭#this is why all of my ex bosses begged me to stay when i quit teehee #im yapping too much but yeah !! heall yeah money !!

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twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat · 10 months ago

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PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE MAKE READER CALL SUGURU EMPEROR PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE I KNOW HIM AND SATORU HAVE THE WEIRDEST FREAKIEST ROLEPLAY IDEAS AND SUGURU WOULD BE SUCH A SUCKER FOR THAT PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DOUBLE POINTS IF HIS SPOUSE IS KNEELING IN A KIMONO WHILE THEY SAY IT PLEASE!!!!

PHDKDJUSJDUJF 😭😭😭😭😭 YOU’RE SO REAL ANON I’M SCREAMING RIGHT WITH YOU!!!! i think reader would say it as a joke but he’s scared of how much he liked it LMAO. the tips of his ears go red <33 and you continue calling him that now and then just to tease him until he shuts you up with a kiss and tells you to say it like you mean i /GUNSHOT.

also his spouse kneeling in a kimono……………….. yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh he’s losing his mind i fear 🙏 sadly he is a freak but it’s ok .

#trust that i will make reader call him that anon >:3 ONLY AS A JOKE THO we need to keep him on his toes!!#cult leader geto is perfect for this scenario huh #i think he would lose it if his partner wore a kimono period #or a haori #any kind of traditional japanese clothing has him going completely feral #he gets cuteness aggression but like. from how GORGEOUS you are. gorgeousness… aggression……#you’re just sooooo beautiful and he’s restraining a deeply buried urge to hug you until you pop #he’s normal abt you btw #ask tag ✩

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driftwooddestiel · 3 months ago

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comment so bad i read it in the jacksfilms your grammar sucks voice

#i cant even tell if this is being transphobic or not #ive gotta resist the urge to reply to every stupid comment on this stupid video bc im just trying to plan and compose an #actual response to the guy i just posted about. because hes started getting all 'people should be able to defend what they believe #on their own' when i suggested directing him to some literature that explains my point better than i was #girl sorry i wasnt giving you the worlds most perfect explanation... i like most people actually suffer from this affliction where #i cannot perfectly articulate my thoughts without constructing my arguments beforehand and planning out what to say #so yeah my youtube comments half of which i wrote from 2-4am are not the best representation of my thoughts #sorry i just read your reply and answered it instead of planning out a frigging essay!! soooo sorry.#bros got me saying things like 'frigging'. this is how bad it is #sorry for all the ranting about this btw i need an outlet for how annoyed the ppl i debate on youtube make me so that i dont start #just responding to all their arguments with 'dean suck cas good and hard thru his jorts' or something

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linabirb · 1 year ago

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also what is it about therapists constantly saying i must be irresistible to men. the other therapist i've had when i was like.. i think 16 years old? said to me "you're so pretty, i'm honestly surprised you still don't have a boyfriend". and today my current therapist was like "you have such a soft and gentle voice, i'm sure you can make any man fall in love with you with it". what is it with them thinking i'm the rizzler

#i don't remember if i've mentioned this on here but #there was a time when one guy in college said to me that i'm basically a perfect girlfriend #my honest reaction was. “thank you :)”#and this is why every time i get the urge to make fun of the dating sim protags being oblivious i have to. humble myself #[ 💚 𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐚 𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐬 ]

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